I made it to the cooler weather. That's something at least.
I had three different phone conversations via my nurses with my doctor. She really kept insisting on doing the Menopur today. She said that my LH level was fine, no need to worry. She said she was quite worried about my low E2, despite my repeated remindings that it was only after two days of stims and that I always do this on long lupron and then--WHOOSH--it starts to shoot right up. That didn't seem to help.
And I relented.
I shot up in the airport and once I felt the sting of the Menopur I thought "Well there goes nothing."
So tomorrow morning bright and early I'll have the LH checked again. Obviously my fear is that it's much higher and then it's too late, what have I done, why did I give in, etc.
I wanted to trust them so much and so I did. I argued every which way I knew how and at that point if I hadn't done it, I feared they would fire me. Or label me difficult. Which shouldn't matter....yikes yikes yikes.
But it's done now. I have to just trust. And let go.
More freaking out tomorrow, I'm sure.
Thanks for the advice and the listening ears (errr, reading eyes??). It's lonely out here.
Hoping to see some follicles tomorrow....
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