First up: thanks for delurking and also just saying hi. It's a strange world, this online community. Not that YOU'RE strange, but I feel strange sometimes thinking about just how much comfort I have received from folks I don't even know. But yet you know so much about me, and you see a lot of my worst parts, and you still read. And support. So thanks.
Which means you get some type of payback, right? Ok, don't get too excited. It's not that great of a video.
Some things to point out:
Does anyone look good in those stupid surgical hats they make us wear? Sheesh.
When I watch those early clips, boy do I think we look stupid and naive. Oh yeah: we were stupid and naive.
Mr. LC loves to take footage of me coming out of the anesthesia, where usually I'm crying or still high, or both. So yeah, that's is in there a few times. Thanks Mr. LC! You rock.
There is only one BFN-receiving phone call recorded (IVF #2). And that one, we really really thought we had succeeded (no HPTs taken beforehand to clue us in). I mean--we had our camera rolling for God's sake! We edited out the part where the ugly crying really started.
When I'm being wheeled out in the wheelchair...that's the building I work in. As in: I go in THAT BUILDING of my first three IVFs every day I am at work, usually riding up in the elevator with the embryologists or retrieval/transfer nurses. Sheesh again.
My fellow CC.R.M. peeps--that dildo cam shot is for you! Just seeing it makes me shudder.
The music: I've been planning on using the ELO song forever, of course planning it for our BFP video. The words are simply too appropriate--we've been holding on tight to our dream for nearly five years. And you know what? We're still holding on tight.
At any rate, enjoy it.
5 years ago