Thanks for the comments yesterday...I can only say how sorry I am to have two commenters who have actually experienced both cancer and infertility. That is too much misfortune for any one human being to bear, and yet they have/do with grace. Amazing.
I guess I thought it was obvious my intent in the post--to say that in the midst of my darkest days I never woke up fearing I might not live. I never worried that I wouldn't grow old. I certainly worried about the quality of my life, and whether there would be grandchildren around when I grew old, and things like that...but to see the fear in my patient's eyes yesterday...the fear of imminent death when she's in the prime of her life...that touched my heart.
And made me profoundly grateful.
She doesn't know whether she will be alive next year.
True, I guess no one does. I could get hit by a bus tomorrow. I could get diagnosed with cancer myself next week. But I won't die from infertility, that much I can hang my hat on.
At any rate, we leave on Friday for our major getaway! Hooray! The mister has two shows in the NYC metro over the weekend and then we'll be there for the whole week after. And I'm seeing my boys, OKGo on Friday night in Brooklyn. And my NJ sister Gail.
I have needed this trip for a long time. My dreadful exam is over. My Dad's health is stable. Mr. LC and I are making plans.
There is so much life to live...and I just can't miss a minute of it.
10 years ago
sounds like all positive, wonderful things. so glad for that for you and the Mr. it is definitely needed and so deserved...
ReplyDeletehope you have a lovely time on your trip. the weather should be beautiful out here next week.
xoxo
the post yesterday is stil knocking around inside of me. i have seen too many strong vibrant people that i love be broken down to their very core by cancer and i am scared to death that i will have to see it again someday, which no doubt will happen, given the odds. ill just say the only thing i can without getting myself too emotional...thank god it was your eyes she was looking into and not in someone's office who didn't take the time to care what she was going through and what she faces.
You sound great! Enjoy your trip to NYC, I know how much you love it there. Will we be getting another NYC video???
ReplyDeleteI hope you completely enjoy yourself on your much much deserved vacation....
ReplyDeleteYou and Mr. LC deserve this much needed vacation. NYC is so awesome this time of year. Eat, drink and enjoy the music!
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a great trip!! :)
ReplyDeleteSafe and happy travels! And say hi to the OKGo boys for me!
ReplyDeleteThat sounds like a fantastic holiday! Good mix of "culture" and friends. My husband and I have loved our holidays - I find it's like having a holiday from my life - I don't think about infertility or any of the things that have gone wrong with our flat or the stresses of jobs etc. And it's something to boast about to all those folk with kids who can;t do that stuff ;-)!
ReplyDeleteThe last post touched my heart, and I have spent the past few days thanking God that I am ONLY suffering from infertility, instead of some fatal disease. I hope you have a wonderful trip!
ReplyDeleteAnd we better get a video or you are taking me with you! I am so excited for Mr. LC. TWO shows?!? AWESOMENESS! And a week in NYC after?!? EVEN MORE AWESOMENESS!
ReplyDeleteHave fun in NYC and at the OKGo concert - they always put on such a good show!!!
ReplyDeleteI am going to send you an email with a few of my favs. You are going to have a fun week. It's suppose to be beautiful weather!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you are taking this getaway. It sounds like you have some amazing stuff planned. Enjoy every minute of it!!
ReplyDeleteI commented on your last post and will likely continue to process it for some time to come...
Have the greatest trip ever, Mrs. LC! I'm jealous that you get to see O.K.Go. =) I'm also so happy that YOU'RE happy right now! You and Mr. LC deserve to enjoy the crap out of each other. Knock 'em dead, kid.
ReplyDeleteI have been hiding for a few weeks but I just wanted to say how happy (read: jealous) I am for you two to have a much needed getaway! I hope it is great, and I expect a video! xoxo
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see you! Spring is here in NYC. Most of next week should be glorious weather. Safe travels!!!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your trip. It's so great to take a break from all your worries and just enjoy life. Wouldn't it be great if we could live our lives like that, vacation or no?
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a fantastic trip! If you get a chance, I highly recommend Kee's Chocolates in SoHo. But then again, I'm the one who suggested the Girl Scout Thin Mint Cookie Blizzard, and that didn't go over so big. But google Kee's - it might be worth it. :-)
ReplyDeleteHope you have a fabulous trip! Have some fun for me too!
ReplyDeleteHave an awesome time on your much needed vacation! Enjoy yourself and Mr LC and good luck to Mr LC at his shows:)
ReplyDeleteI've visited your blog and read your posts about cancer a few times but I never commented. You see, reading your posts about cancer has really hit home. My dad was recently diagnosed (February of this year) with stage 4 esophageal cancer. And you're right. Cancer sucks.
ReplyDeleteI hope you enjoy your vacation! You so deserve it!
Yay for your vacation! We all need time away to decompress and get away from every day life. Enjoy your trip and I will look forward to reading about it when you return :) Safe travels
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