Or maybe it won't.
At any rate, tomorrow I go in for my first lining check. Plus some bloodwork: estradiol, LH, progesterone, and good old TSH just to make sure my thyroid is doing it's thing properly.
Just a note: CC.R.M. did not suggest I check my TSH, I did. Because hello? It's kind of important. I freaked my endocrinologist boss out a little bit when I plopped down in his office and 'presented' my case..asking what he'd like my TSH to be for a frozen embryo transfer, and whether or not he thought the estrogen patches could impact my need for thyroid hormone. He's really a great boss/doctor/person and he's been nothing but supportive of my ventures, but he's also awkward when discussing my fertility. Gee, I wonder why? But the support--who could forget my agonizing phone call to him at his weekend home (on the weekend) while I was doing stims and needed to go one.more.day and thus needed another day off of work and his response was an exuberant: Go for it! So I guess I'm lucky in that regard. His answer, just in case you're wondering: TSH definitely under 2 but closer to 1 is ideal, and no, he doesn't think the estrogen will really impact anything.
Do they normally check your lining after only 4-ish days of Vivelle patch? I don't know if that's the norm, but it is for me since I tend to develop a thick lining. Of course now I'm anxious that I won't be developing any lining at all and will eat all my words of worry about a hyperplasic lining.
What's one more thing to worry about right?
I'm trying to decide whether or not to go home again next weekend to see Dad, and help my Mom. I feel like this is all on me. My Mom doesn't know about the upcoming FET and thus in her mind I'm not really doing much else so I could come home fairly easily. She would never say this and certainly never has, but I know her well enough to know she wants extra company/help/etc. and to know her thought processes. As in, Mrs. LastChance only works 4 days per week, Mrs. LastChance doesn't have any kids, Mrs. LastChance could come home. The next weekend, God-willing, we'll be in Colorado. And then it's getting so close to Thanksgiving I don't really want to travel twice in two weeks...so weekend after next might be a good option. But I'm so tired...of traveling.
Part of me wants to just let her know how much stuff I have been juggling, but then again, that only makes me feel better and her feel worse so scratch that. I wish my sister could take a weekend, but...wait for it...she has kids.
Please please please can you imagine how fun it would be to give my Mom some completely amazing news at Thanksgiving? I think it would buoy her spirits from here to eternity.
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I think it would be such a fun Thanksgiving to finally share a big surprise with your mom! I absolutely understand feeling overwhelmed and wanting to stop traveling for a little bit...I can't even come up with a good excuse for you so that your mom would understand without "knowing" you know? I'm sorry...you have so much on your plate right now.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the TSH levels. CCRM never really wanted to check mine overmuch and I always convinced them (and once I even marked it on a form when I shouldn't have but I couldn't reach them). It is VERY IMPORTANT. Mine was perfect prior to cycling and then went much higher in my first trimester so at least your own production of estrogen does make a big impact on it. Also - a day 4 check is perfect...I think I had the same thing b/c I tend to get a thick lining too. I'm hoping for good news tomorrow and even better news from you in just a few weeks.
Thanks for the inside info on TSH. I've often wondered about that. Good luck with your lining check today!
ReplyDeleteDuring my FET, the emotional part was just as stressful for me as an IVF cycle, even though the monitoring was much less. I think you need to do whatever you have to to take care of yourself right now. Yes, it may sound selfish to your mom, but you have to be when you are doing all you can to optimize your fertility and lower your stress. You have my complete support to take a weekend off!! Your sister has a husband, right? He can watch her kids if need be for a day or two on the weekend.
Let's hope we all have something a bit more to be thankful for on Thanksgiving!
I hope that you can give your family great news on Thanksgiving!!!
ReplyDeleteHoping you have the best thanksgiving ever....oh I am so hoping.
ReplyDeleteI know how to get out of traveling this weekend! On friday, make up a friend with a crisis that you, and you alone can help her out of. Broken leg, broken down car, family emergency and you've got to cat sit, you know... a white lie! :) Nobody can fault you for coming to the aid of someone in need, after all, your mama raised you right! ;)
ReplyDeleteI am hoping so hard for you that you will have something extra special to give thanks for this year and to share with your family. As for this weekend, it is very hard to not say anything to your parents (believe me - I kept my entire Colorado cycling and one day workup under wraps and I understand completely) but you do need to put yourself first right now. You can make up for it later. If you don't want to stretch any truths, than remember that you do NOT owe anyone any explanations and if you're not up to it, you're not up to it. You could say you're tired (which is the truth) and say that you need to rest b/c you don't want to make yourself susceptible to H1N1 (truth again). Hang in there - you're going to be fine and know that your parents will understand.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking your sister doesn't know about the cycle, right? Would you consider asking her to help out for a weekend? Having kids shouldn't be used as an excuse IMHO.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you have so much on your plate all at once! Good luck with your appt. tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should send thick or thin lining thoughts your way so I'm thinking "perfect" lining thoughts for you. (-;
Crossing my fingers that the numbers are where they should be & that your lining looks great! It's always hard leading a double life, but in either going or not going to see your dad, there is no wrong choice. There is a more guilty choice maybe (I think you get guilty like I do), but there's also the need to prepare and relax before the transfer that needs to be balanced. It will all wash out in the end. If you feel like going- go. If you need to stay at home- stay at home. You are an awesome daughter and your parents know that.
ReplyDeletei think it would be wonderful for y'all to have some great news to share at thanksgiving! it would also be very fitting! :)
ReplyDeleteI would just tell your Mom that you are coming down with something. As stressed as you must be, it's not too much of a lie. You need to take care of yourself first or everything else will suffer, so I would just use that so that you don't have to travel too much this month. Good luck with everything!
ReplyDeleteAck, you guys are always juggling so much AND to have the insight to keep your upcoming FET to yourself to not further worry your mom is really amazing and selfless! I keep you guys in my thoughts all the time even though I've been a crappy commenter. I really hope nothing but the best for you guys, because it is what you deserve.
ReplyDeleteOMG, that would be the ultimate to be able to give your mom that news on Thanksgiving!!! Ok, so that is what I'm now wishing for you, a perfect TG announcement!
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