Sunday, December 26, 2010

I've been quiet...


But I'm still around.

Suffice it to say that our trip was amazing. Perfect in every way. Our tenth trip to the city in ten years--the best one yet!

Christmas with my parents was better than anticipated. It's amazing how your perspective and expectations change...I was thrilled beyond words that my Dad managed to stay in the living room while we opened gifts, and even exchanged two or three sentences with us. He actually asked us to show us what we were opening up which was remarkable. And he chose to eat at the table with us, rather than eating in his bed. It was a Christmas miracle indeed. If you'd asked me if I ever would have been ecstatic to have my Dad just say three sentences during a family celebration I would never have predicted it, but alas, it was true.

Changes are coming to the blog..this much I know. I just haven't decided in which direction to turn. I turned off anonymous comments which feels ok, but still doesn't feel like enough. Maybe I'm getting to the place where I don't need to be out there so much...I cycle through this emotion every now and again but this time it seems to be sticking around.

I hope everyone reading had the best possible holiday they could. I know it's an awfully hard time to be dealing with infertility, to have empty arms, less stockings to hang than you want, to ache for the babies that should be with you, to see blissful families bustling around you who will never know the pain of yearning for what they have so easily.... There are myriad ways to feel pain at the holidays, but also myriad ways to feel joy.

I hope all my IF buds felt some joy this holiday season, because you deserve it all in abundance.

31 comments:

  1. I'll admit it. I did have a pretty good Christmas after canceling Christmas last year. I guess time does heal all wounds, though I know I'll be scarred for life from IF. Wishing you a better decade in 2011!

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  2. And you deserve it all as well. I'm so glad your Christmas was more joyful than you expected, it was great to hear from you and even better to hear about your dad.

    Holidays are almost over... Hang in there.

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  3. What a beautiful post! So glad you had a good time!! (((hugs))) & happy new year!

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  4. I am so glad you enjoyed your trip and holiday, you were certainly in need of that. I understand feeling confused about your blog. I love blogging and this community but sometimes it is hard to know where to I fit in. Here to support you either way,
    wishing you the very best of things in 2011. Love to you...

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  5. I'm really pleased that your Dad was so involved with Christmas Day. Like CGD says, whatever you decide to do with your blog, there are lots of us out here happy to go with what you decide and support you in it.

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  6. So glad to hear you enjoyed the holiday, and were able to share it with your dad.

    Wishing you a better 2011.

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  7. Hey... that background in the picture looks familiar :)

    I am so happy you had a nice time with your family and the moments with your dad sound precious.

    I am wishing you all the very best within my power of hopes and dreams. I hope and wish that this next year is kinder and softer for you.

    Lot's and lot's of love to you and Mr. LC.
    xoxoxo

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  8. That's an awesome picture! Here's hoping for some peace and joy for you and Mr. LC in the New Year!

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  9. I'm so glad that your Christmas was better than expected and especially happy to hear your Dad was so interactive with you all!! Sending you all the joy you deserve in the new year!

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  10. So awesome to hear you in such good spirits!!! Glad you had a great trip and so awesome about your dad. Great picture! May this coming year be your year!

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  11. I'm glad to hear that you had a great trip back to the big city and that family festivities brought you some happiness. Wishing you blessings in 2011!

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  12. It was SO great to see you guys! You left just as the snow was coming!!! One day later and you would've been stuck here, which would have killed you, I know. :-) I can't express how happy we were to spend time with you both. Thank you for a great time. Katie thanks you, too!

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  13. I'm so happy to hear that your Christmas was amazing and that your dad was doing well.

    It's ok to be quiet, as long as it is not forever. We all love you and love following along and supporting you throughout your journey. :)

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  14. You're such a sweet girl to wish such goodness for everyone, even when you hurt.

    So happy for you that your dad was able to share in the celebrations - you've been such a good daughter. I hope to follow your blog through the time when you get the call and bring that wonderful little one home with you both.

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  15. I am glad the visit with your Dad was pretty good.

    Megan

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  16. as do you!! Glad this years Christmas brought you some joy :)

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  17. Love the pic! Even all bundled up, you can tell you're amazing! :)
    Glad you made it home before you got stuck there in the snow!!

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  18. So glad you had a wonderful trip and Christmas with your family!! Love, love, love that picture!! I have been thinking about you and am glad you updated. I also want to echo what has been said- we are here to support you whatever direction you choose to take :)

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  19. I am so very happy to hear that you were able to have some good time with your dad on Christmas. You are in my thoughts often. Hoping that we both are able to endure this adoption process and end up with our miracles in the end. Hugs to you my friend!

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  20. Glad you had an amazing trip to the Best City in the World! And really happy to hear you had a good Christmas with your family and you got to have those quality moments with your Dad. Love your Christmas miracle.

    Will be here for you, whatever happens with your blog.

    Happy new year....and may yhe

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  21. (Hit post too quickly!)

    Happy new year.... and may the new year bring all things possible. XO

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  22. Oh, I'm so glad you had those special moments with your dad. It truly can be the little things that warm your heart, and yes, give you new perspective.

    Hope your vacation has refreshed you and that 2011 truly is a happy new year for you and yours. Good to hear from you :)

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  23. Lasty! It was so wonderful to see you! I want to be able to have lunch with you all the time! And I'm so glad to see the love and support expressed by your friends and readers above -- I hope you'll know that it will follow you whether you blog or not, as I've found.

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  24. So touched to read about your amazing holiday moment with your Dad. Such a precious memory, and a nice way to close out 2010.

    May love, peace and a million smiles welcome you into the new year. You deserve a huge abundance of it yourself lady!

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  25. Good to hear from you! You look VERY happy in that shot. Which is fantastic :)

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  26. I'm so glad you had a great trip up here, and that the weather didn't mess up your plans. We missed the big storm too, as we were out in CA.
    I hope you have a wonderful New Year!

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  27. I'm glad that you enjoyed your trip, and glad that you had your Christmas miracle with your Dad. That is fantastic.

    Happy New Year! :)

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  28. I'm so glad you found my blog (I posted a reply there). I have been following your blog and your transition from treatment to adoption. I am happy you had the blessing of spending that quality time on Christmas with your Dad. I bet that was the best gift of all. It's amazing how much family means to us and how much we get out of just being together. I hope that 2011 will bring you your hearts desires!

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  29. Reading about your Christmas with your dad has me tearing up. Expectations do change making what was once trivial now simply amazing. I am just so happy for this bonus gift for your family this year.

    I do understand about the blogging transition. I took a 6 month hiatus and throughout most of it wasn't sure I would come back. And even now I'm not so sure what to do with it. I will always be here reading whatever you choose to write...and if you do stop, I still know where to find you. (-; xoxo

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  30. I'm so glad you had a good Christmas with your dad. And I just wanted to thank you for always commenting on my sister's blog (Molly) I think you are the loveliest, loveliest person in the world for taking the time to do that.
    Amy x

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